freedom? not!

Salam everyone,

Thank God examinations had finish. The ordeal is excruciating. Tired, fatigue with this whole situation. Most people will have felt relieve after their examinations but not me. I'm not relieve even after exams had finish. I don't feel contented with what I had done. Well, partly or should I say mostly it was my own fault that I didn't study properly. I didn't see the fact it was my End Of Year EXAMS and this is the point that determines the future ahead. It has passed and there is nothing that I could do about it except to pray for the best.

I should be starting to improve myself since next year is the big 'A'. Planning is easy and I have done most of it but pushing myself to do the tasks that I had planned is damn hard. Istiqamah has never been easy. Unless we push ourselves, we will never progress in life.

Moving on, 2 weeks had passed since my birthday. Thanks to those who had wished me in advance, during the day itself or belated. To those who didn't wish, I still love you guys no matter what. =) Thanks to those who game me presents and thanks to my family for that small celebration. May God bless you all. Ameen. =)

I don't want to dwell on it but I quite dislike the date of my birthday. well, it always clashes with the end of year examinations or major examinations. I wish that I could be happy on my birthday as it is only once in a year but it doesn't seems so. I felt I was more sensitive on that day. I guess, I could be happy on any other day as well.

My problems keep on adding day by day. I'm so confuse that I don't know which problem should I solve first. My patience is being tested day by day. I know I should be strong but the wall within me is cracking up. I'm holding on tight with God by my side.

There is a few things that I want to do in these few days. I want to go to Changi boardwalk. If there's no one going with me, then I'll go alone. It is just nice being with nature and it has been quite long since I'd done that. I need my dose of nature. =p And I want to go to Borders! So anyone joining? =)

That's all from me for now.

السلام عليكم

Life has been hard on me these few days. Many undesirable things has been happening to me. Maybe, I'll blog a few of it here.

I got zero for a test. Seriously. No joking. I knew I would fail the test, but getting a zero? I was shocked when I got the paper. And Ustaz didn't put a zero. He wrote a question mark instead of big fat zero. ?/10. That is what he wrote. How sarcastic. How demotivating.

But then I realize that, that is what I deserve, I did not take the test seriously, I didn't even study properly. I was taking things lightly.

And to make myself feel better, I said to myself, there's a first time for everything and I hope this is the last time too. It better be because another zero will make me feel even worse.

And another thing, I failed my maths test. By one mark. There was a lot of careless mistakes. Like always. Stupid careless mistakes.

Why am I telling this in my blog? I just want the people to know that, I got good marks not because that I'm clever, but because I understand and study. This shows that not clever people will succeed, but those who are hardworking and deserves it.

My examinations are coming really soon. Only 9 days left. And I haven't started studying for the exams. How lazy of me. Will be starting soon I hope.

All the best to my fellow S507 who will be retaking their O levels. Just try your best and you will succeed. Insya Allah.

A Dedication To A Friend Of Mine.

I was in primary 6, sitting all alone in the musollah, waiting for the prayers to begin. 2 individuals approached me and said, " Hi, do you want to join us?" and I innocently replied, " Nah, you guys are bad people. I don't wish to join you guys." Their intentions were good. They pitied me as I was all alone. Little did I know there are going to be my best friends later on.

During secondary 3, we had geography lessons after school. Those two same individuals attended the class. I sat at the front while they sat behind. When the class gets bored, they threw bits of erasers at me just for fun. I was irritated at first, but that was the beginning of a beautiful friendship.One of them has a mole at her nose. We weren't that close at first, but something happen that change my life and hers. She started consoling in me. We shared problems and ideas. I liked her as she always has a different perspective on things. Sometimes, we may have disagreements on things, but we still remain close friends.Now, we had move on to our own path in life but I will never forget the friendship that we had. Although we rarely see each other and communicate, she will always have a place in my mind and heart.

"Whatever problems befall you, stay strong
like a rooted tree in the strong wind.
When life's getting harder by the day,
remember the sweet memories that you once had.
When you feel that no one's there for you,
there's Him that'll always guide you. "

Happy (belated) 18th birthday my dear friend. May God bless you. Ameen. =)

To my dear readers, I may not be blogging until next month. Need to concentrate on this major examination. And this laptop need a change in the hard disk. I'll be going mad if I keep using this crazy laptop.

That's all from me for now.

!!عيد المبارك =)

السلام عليكم

The blissful month of Ramadan had already passed. I hope that we will get to meet the next Ramadan. Insya Allah.

In this month of Syawal, I want to wish my fellow readers, my friends, a happy Eidul Fitri and I want to seek forgiveness for my wrongdoings, intentionally or otherwise.

I wish that everyone will spend this hari raya with forgiveness and not forgetting the takbir. =)

that all form me for now.

It's been long enough...

Salaam everyone,

It has been over a month since the last entry. I hope this blog doesn't seems to be dying. Well, for one, the owner is still surviving. Many things, (and i really mean many) has been happening. Either good or bad, happy or sad and stressful too. Sometimes I feel that I don't know what's really going on in my life.

On a lighter note, it is already the month of Ramadan and it is coming to an end. As we grow older, we will realise the important things in life that we have not been doing. I feel that I've matured quite a lot this year. I just hope that this Ramadan is full of blessings and forgiveness. Ameen. =)

There are many things that I really want to talk about, that I want to share with my fellow readers, but well, time does not seems to be in my favour. I'll try to talk ( read:type) as much as I could.

Care and concern.

A lot of things have been happening lately until I don't have the time to express my care and concern to my fellow friends. Especially those not in the same school as me. I felt terribly guilty but at the same time, the care and concern that I have for them still doesn't change that much. The only thing that have change is that, I failed to communicate with them.

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Care and concern are feelings that we can't deny. these feelings can be showed in different ways. We can know that someone cares for us is when they always asks us if we are ok, if we have any problems, etc. But there is another type of care and concern that we might not sense. We will never know that there may be someone that will always pray for our well-being. there will be someone that is worried about us day and night.

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The thing that I want to convey is that, don't ever think that no one cares for you. Sometimes the one that you expect the least is the one who cares for you the most. And one more thing, God will always be there for you, when (if really) no one is there for you.

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I wish to share a forwarded message that I received for someone (unexpected) that was sent some time ago.

People are often unreasonable, illogical and self-centered;

Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;

Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will find some false friends and some true enemies;

Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;

Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;

build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;

Be happy anyway.

The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;

Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough;

Give the world the best you got anyway.

You see, in the end it is between you and Allah;

It is never between you and them anyway.

-how true it is =)

A strong Iman will shield us from doing bad deeds. So what are you waiting for? Be stronger bit by bit, day by day. ( remember the hadith about the strong Mukmin and the weak Mukmin? )

These reminder is not just for you, it is for me too. Because, I'm just a normal human being too.

Wallahu a'lam.

*I'm sooo looking forward to this friday. Hope to see my big happy family there* =D

That's all from me for now.

Updated! =p

Salam everyone,

First of all, really sorry for not updating. It's not that i don't want to update, blame it on my tight, hectic schedule and my sick laptop. FYI, I'm updating using the house's computer. My laptop's hardisk got infected. Haish.

I'm just loving this long holiday. Although its not that peaceful too at home. Everyone's seems to be moody nowadays. Me too. It's the environment, i think. I just hope people will get happier these coming days. Insya Allah =)

Was feeling really down last few days. And i wrote this in class. Someone recommended me to put it in my blog. heh. It's edited too. Note: this is purely my feelings and has got nothing to do with anybody. It's not perfect, it's not that good either. Just thought of sharing. Enjoy (?)

All alone in this strange place
Why do I feel so out of place
Without anyone guiding me
To the right path that I should be

I still don't understand why I'm here
Making differences, is it the reason
But why is is my heart feels unaccepted
To the way of life that is here

Can I survive here any longer
Without proper guidance to help me out
I don't think that I am strong
To handle this all along

Everything here does not seems right
So does that means everything's wrong?
If it is wrong then why I'm still here
Is it time for me to go

I'm still searching within myself
Searching for the reason I'm here
Hoping that I'll find it soon
Before something bad happens to me

I just hope I can have a peace of mind
And become the best person that I can be
It is so hard to think straight
With all the problems clinging on tight

"You can do it," people said
But what if I say I can't
So who is it that I should trust
Is it me or the people around me

Seeing is believing
how can I believe in myself
If I still can't see clearly
The path I'm treading

The only thing I can believe
that He will always
Be there
when I need Him.

Moving on, yesterday's opening ceremony of the Beijing Olympic was magnificent. Actually I was not planning to watch it, but the television set was on and I watched. The performances was superb. The choreographing, the music, all was too perfect. Credits to China for the wonderful event. And because of this, I knew that there are soo many countries and soo many kinds of people living in the world. Now do I realise how vast the world is by seeing all sorts of people from countries all over the world. Masya Allah. I got sleepy just waiting for the Singapore contingent to come out. Then i realise that they follow the Chinese alphabetical order. Sheesh.

Another thing, Didn't feel like it was national day today. Time flew by so fast. Too fast for me to catch up. Hope I can organise my life in this long holiday. Feel so messed up.

To those feeling down, cheer up. Just look on the bright side of life.. (sing along!) haha.. =)

That's all from me for now.

Thee BIG day

Salam everyone,

-Tomorrow's the day. I'm still thinking I'm dreaming. Never in my whole life did i think that this is going to happen. I need to compose myself. The emotions need to hold on. Friends, I need you guys by my side. I'm holding on firmly. I need your support. Please don't leave me. Its is really hard for me. Please help me. I need to be myself. I just hope I'll be ok tomorrow. No thinking of negative things. No crying. No turning back. Oh Allah, I'm soo nervous. Calm me down. Ameen.-

Don't worry, I'll be alright. Insya Allah. =)

That's all from me for now.

Salam people,

Been very very busy since school reopens, that's why no update. Another thing is that, had no mood to update. But well, since someone urge me to update, I'll do it. Bare with me as i think this post will be quite long. =p

20-21 June: The inter-madrasah games.

I felt quite different attending the stadium with a different school uniform, but well need to accept the fact. It was quite hot on both days but it did not dampened my spirit to cheer not for one, but for two schools. I'm being fair aren't I? =D I didn't took any pics on Friday as there was something wrong with the camera. Was not feeling that lively too on that day.
But on Saturday.. came quite early as someone fetched me and my father to the stadium. =p Was quite bored as many hadn't arrived yet. So i decided to take some pictures.

A beautiful sunrise-

Yes, nature pictures. What did you expect from me? hehe. Then there was a 'contingent march'.

Hmm... overall was quite ok. After the games had finished, got to meet my beloved S507. We ate together. Although we spent such a short time together, I really appreciated it. It was quite tiring although i did not participated in any events on both days. heh.

3-6 July: preparations for jubilee and the jubilee itself =)

I think those 4 days is the most tiring days for this year! I am under the English club and we got a class for our display. It was ok. The team did a great job on the decorations and set up. let the pictures do the talking.

Our dedicated teacher in charge=D

the guys doing their 'work'

Future president- a role model. (sorry arab =p)

Our 3 smart excos.

2 beautiful ladies selling cakes and brownies. yums!

The game booth with 2 cute moderators =p

Our presentation: The role of Madrasah between the Government and Islam.

Motion for the day: ban smoking?

Graffiti on the wall. nice..

Our portfolio.

Explaining the presentation to temasek jc students.

Conducting the game for students from a nearby pri. school.

"hmm.. how hard can a pri 6 question get?"

That's all from me for now =)