First of all, I hope it is not too late to wish my beloved readers eidul fitri mubarak! Let's pray that we get to meet the next Ramadhan. Ameen.
Next, as the title says, I really am not sure what's going on with my life. Firstly, I realized that the holidays has made me more lazier than usual. Next week is my A LEVELS PRELIMS, and what have I revised? NONE. The moment I start to study, I'll feel sleepy, and then I sleep. This has been the routine the past three days. Gosh, I feel like kicking myself hard. Maybe, just maybe, I'm at the bottom of the wheel.
I just can't understand myself. I've been waiting since last year to have the time to just focus on my studies, and when I've already been given the period of time to study, I just don't feel like it. It's annoying, especially the problem arises from me alone and the only one that I get to blame is me.
School's exam aka the ukhrawi exams has finished and although I’m quite relieve I’m not sure if the results are fulfilling. Well, I just hope I can get the minimum grade to qualify to enter any university in the world. k.. I think I'm exaggerating. But well, with the effort put in, it is a miracle if I ace any subjects.
Why am I sooo pessimist? I miss my old self. Oh God, when can I get my old self back? Or has my old self gone for good? Or is it hidden because it doesn’t have the will to shine?
I think I'm confused enough.
What I can say for sure that I'm happy to have an Iftar with my beloved Pre-U2 09, my beloved club and my dearest besties.
Not sure why I'm not into the festive mood this year. Not sure if I'll be celebrating Eid here next year.
And I think i miss nature too much. I need to clear my head. I feel like calling up a service that could clear my room.
Should I go tomorrow?
One thing for sure, I need to meet her to lift up my spirits.
Who can I trust? Only Allah for sure.
Too many random thoughts. Sorry for the confusion caused. I'm confused myself.
That's all from me for now.
